Scroll 6 i am master of my emotions. or am I? Since starting the scroll six, i have had more chances to master my emotions.
Here is one of those times. I was driving to a business meeting and in my city there are lots of highways and large 3 or 4 lane roads. Well, I was driving and I needed to change lanes to get to the road I wanted to go to. So I started to move over from the right lane to the middle lane then I again needed to move again from the middle lane all the way over to the left lane. So I carefully moved over watching for cars and moved in behind a truck. I did not cut anyone off just pulled behind already flowing traffic. Well, I then .took the next left turn and stopped for the red light. Well, then I heard something coming from the right side of me. The truck was also in the left turning lane waiting for the red light to change. Ok, what did I hear. The man in the truck was yelling BAD words at me. I was following him too closely! ETC..ETC.. with lots of swear words… So as he was yelling.
This is what was happening inside of me. My emotions started to CHURN. I was feeling hurt and bad because the guy was mad at me. I felt his disapproval loud and clear. It reminded me of when I was a little kid and being scolded. I didn’t engage with the fellow so as not to make him more enraged.
Instead in my head I was talking to myself saying I control my emotions. i control my emotions. I greet this day with love in my heart. and I said I love you to the man. Then I am whole,perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, and appy. over and over again.
Now as I was sitting there waiting for the red light to change and as the man was still ranting. The emotions came rolling down my cheeks one tear for each eye. I was feeling beat up. The man finally calmed down and let it go.
By now I was already thinking in my mind with tons of emotions in my head rolling around . The light finally turned green and I was on my way to my destination. I tried to concentrate on the road and looked back to see if the guy was still mad. He wasn’t.
Then I remembered I can put any feeling to any idea. *LIGHT BULB MOMENT* I CHOOSE to change my feelings. I choose to be HAPPY not defeated or hurt just happy. I continued my day and made it a HAPPY one. I was in my meeting and enjoyed it and never said a word about the experience. I let it go and I choose to make my day a happy one.
It wasn’t instantaneous process for me, but in the past I would make an experience like that affect me for the rest of the day and longer sometimes. I would complain to everyone I could talk to. I would make it grow and grow. Instead I made the choice to be happy and that is what grew and grew…
I’m proud of myself. I am in control of my emotions!